生命之旅 - Life as a journey....

It was on clearance at Target, and it caught my eyes when I first spotted it.
I didn't buy it right away, but after what just happened in the past few days, I went back and got it.

SOME PEOPLE COME INTO OUR LIVES
AND QUICKLY GO.

OTHERS STAY A WHILE, MAKE FOOTPRINTS
ON OUR HEARTS AND WE ARE NEVER, EVER THE SAME.

That's what it said.

I suppose my guilt is, I never spelled out and made aware of how important he is to me then.
He was a constant, quietly standing out there, though I did not know, guess I will never know, if he ever had his eyes on me.  He was there, quietly, within distance.
In some senses, I was comfortable to be right next to him.
He brought out a side of me that no one ever though I had, not even myself sometime.

Come to think of it, during the years of being exile, he was what I need at that time...

People don't joke around me, only he jokes almost about everything, that most of time made me speechless. Not exactly sure if that's indeed due to his job description as he claimed then.

He didn't change a bit, the opening statement, after a series of questions in the first conversation more than a decade, he still jokes easily and put me to speechless state.
I guess old habits die hard.

I am glad to hear his voice again, knowing he still can joke around me as before.
Also a bit sad, uncertain whether I am just a joking object to him.
Yet, almost no time gap in between, as if time doesn't exist.
Perhaps I can say I did not lose him after all, and be happy about that I am able to recover this constant to me once before.

He left a very solid footprint in my heart, even I did not realize at that time until I suddenly realized I did not have anyone else but his pictures with me across the ocean all these years. Those pictures of his, become a precious property of mine as a proof that I did once exist in that far away island. A piece of memory from that island did stay with me.

Maybe I will tell him this when opportunity comes, and so much more.
Well, if he is not called away for meetings or some bone head butt in and cut our phone conversation short...

I was never a spiritual nor a religious person. However, I believe there is a reason for everything.

Even the name that adopted me for the past 2 decades.

Maybe gaining the wisdom to see through time and space is my ultimate destination in this lifetime. I hope I can make it.

Still, I am not sure how I should break this news to him, perhaps just telling him frankly -

Sorry sweetheart, I somehow couldn't find the stamp you made for me 18 years ago.....
Can I get a replacement ? Please ? Pretty please ?

I wonder how his face would be like......

I was so down for quite a while when I realized I lost that stamp he made for me.
It was such a big bummer...

Of course, if he doesn't lose his cell phone and get a new number....
He is so damn hard to be found, and I can say I have found my equal in that department...
Though I enjoy being challenged, but I have to concede the heart is getting weaker, stop beating just a matter of time.

My heart almost stopped when I heard his voice...
I can die with peace any second now.